Friday, April 08, 2016

About Inspiration etc.

Inspiration is such a strong word. It's like doing all the amazing work yourself and give the credit to someone else. Well, that's one way of looking at it. Had it not been for that inspiration, you might not have done that work at all. But is it so? I think not. Something just becomes a medium and you make a big deal of it. 

I have heard this so may times about blogging - I have not been regular as I have lost interest, or there is no motivation anymore. What was that factor that made you write a blog? Do you remember writing your very first post? After publishing it, you may have posted the link on every social networking site, or just pinged your friends on gtalk and asked them to read and comment. Or you may simply have published it under an anonymous name and made sure your friends/family never found out about your blog. 

The way you felt back then while writing the first post and how you feel now while writing one is totally different. When you started writing, you never expected to become so popular or so lost among many popular faces. You never thought you would get so many comments, or you never thought you would be disappointed as not a single person read what you wrote with so much of heart and soul. And yet to write. With the hope that next post will be loved by people. But the frequency reduces. The show becomes less frequent due to the lack of audience. Or maybe not. You keep writing without bothering about such things. But then whom are you writing for? Yourself? Then why not in a more private space? Why a public blog? Why not on a piece of paper or in a diary or in a word file?

I ask myself this often. Why do I write? I love to write, but more importantly, I have fallen in love with the idea of writing that reaches so many people through various mediums. Sharing what I think liberates me. It makes me feel closer to myself. I like to go back to my old posts and read what I wrote a few months ago, a few years ago. The kind of language flow I had, the kind of words I used, my emotions, my opinion, my point of view - everything was so different. I can see myself growing as a person. I can see the difference in Neha a year ago and this Neha. Some things have become better, while others, worse. But they have not been the same. People who used to irritate me a year ago are now dear friends. People whom I loved have become strangers. 

And these emotions, these patterns and these incidences are recorded. Noted. Right here. Six months down the line when I read this post, I will remember what exactly I was going through while writing this post. There is a dilemma that won't even be existing then. I will be laughing about it then, or maybe I will regret about something I should have done and didn't do it. Nevertheless, this phase will seem a lot easier and smaller compared to what I am feeling right now.

Did something or someone inspire me to write? Well, if you call curiosity an inspiration, or shit phase a motivation, or boredom an excuse then yes, you may do so. I think these are just the fancy names we give to something we would do otherwise too if it was a necessity. Keeping a role model is at times just a backup that we choose to fall back. If we cannot repeat the same thing again, or cannot get the same success, we can always get rid of the responsibility by passing the blame buck on the inspiration. Or distraction. Maybe it's the fear that stops up from taking the full credit of our success. 

I do call people my inspirations too. When I want to make them happy. Or to get some work done. It works for me. And them as well. They get motivation. You get good work. Everyone is happy.

14 comments:

  1. True, writing and sharing what we think, feel, believe on our blogs has become an integral part of our lives now. Last week I was going through the posts I had written in 2010, 2011 and 2012 on 15th Feb, our anniversary, and it felt good that I recorded the thoughts, memories I had then.
    Vacation! Sounds great!! Have a great time.
    PS : LOL @ the post label :D

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  2. Well said.
    As for your questions, I used to write short snippets and dash it off to some close friends & relatives (via mail) I realised that they used to wait for my next mail. Then one suggested "Why don't you create a blog account and write there so that everything is in one place and we can read it when ever we want - even reread the old ones" That is how mine started :-)

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  3. I hope,after you return from vacations,you would write more often as earlier

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  4. that's beautifully said. Writing not only helps in expressing but also as you said it captures all our emotions that we go through, like an album of words :)

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  5. Also a good source of inspiration is Facebook. Ok jokes apart I pretty much can relate to this/memories. This is like total recall.

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  6. So nicely written. Can you imagine the effect of it on the guy who just wrote his first post just now (me) and then reading this? This one post cleared so many doubts in my mind! I can call it inspirational. ;)

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  7. Every single word is so true, so honest. Glad I read that!!

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  8. Ur writing is inspiration for me..i relate wid ur topics..ur writings n how u describe a situation..come back soon wid a new n inspiring article for all.of us

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  9. I remember those days! We were self motivated so much and of course; enough encouragement poured in too. With Facebook and the likes of it; blogging has become slow and tedious.

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  10. I feel sometimes blogging is like a diary, you have thoughts and want to write them down, maybe be you can revisit them to inspire yourself :-) and so true that sometimes re reading what you wrote sometime back might bring back memory of a tougher times, and how time changes and things do get better.

    Its a good read - Dee

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  11. Well I must admit YOU were-and are one of the bloggers who inspired me all the time, I hope you remember me from the good old days.. sadly for whatever reasons things changed.

    Although you still are one of those who encouraged me so much all the time and your awards tooo :)

    How are you doing ..

    Bikram's

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  12. Dear Inspiration, when are you going to strike (write) next? Love.

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